I Ache Inside

Oh, the pain!
I am not talking about physical pain but something worse, the pain of the mind.
It is like a bad infection that just keep growing and growing.
A pain so great it paralyses you.
You sit and wonder things like “Why is this happening to me?” and “Will this ever end?”
Oh, how I ache inside.
You do the things like tell yourself things will get better or don’t worry so much because it is just bad stretch you are going through or keep your head up.
You try to put on that smiley face, especially around friends. You do not want others knowing you are so sad all the time.
Oh, how I ache inside.
The pain of the mind becomes so unbearable that you go home every night and lay in your bed and cry yourself to sleep.
That is until you wake up in the middle of the night and cannot go back to sleep because the mind pain is too much.
Oh, how I ache inside.
You tell yourself you are not a quitter; that you have done so much in your life to get to this point. You tell yourself that you have been through worse than this. You tell yourself that this is just another challenge or obstacle to overcome so quit feeling sorry for yourself and do something.
The only thing is the mind pain puts up a seemingly impenetrable wall that keeps you away from the freedom to go on and live your life.
Oh, how I ache inside.
Oh, the pain!
Oh, how I ache inside.